listening: adrogyny - garbage
mood: unsalted butter egg sandwich

Ask a question about history , the past.....
KENAPA? POURQUOI? POR QUE? WESHALB? PERHCE? WHY did they happen..

i found myself thinking back of the time spending my attachment working onboard ship sailing to other countries. and that was like 11 month ago i ended up the sailing thing and decided to better stay here in my own country due to being alone and not seeing my family and friends and missing the fun and excitement things around here. would just dream and think back of home.
but after now, to think of it, i'm feeling much more better onboard than wat i am now.
i could gone mad sometimes onboard when i'm all alone. but i even gone much more mad when i'm all alone here at home.
i find it weird when i got nothing to do or no one disturbing me onboard. but i find it much more weird here at home with nothing to do and nobody disturbing me.

mayb its the accepting some fate thingy or just a part and parcel of growing up..