listening: sarah blasko - don't you ever
mood: keep something in memory or just forget bout it

just last month.. i was on my way to school in the early morning for my 2nd last paper
i didn't make it cos i met an accident. just a few more km to sch, mayb less
it left me to kinda visit to the hospital and stay at home
supposedly it was the end of my poly life but i gotta stay for the modules i've missed
thus a holiday spent at home putting and taking medication

how the accident happen and all after that, i just hear from people.
this was me at e hospital few hours after the accident; clean and stitches done
few abrasion on my right arm and leg
hard impact to e center divider- face first to e green fence cause my visor to break
scars on my forehead, left cheek and below mouth
cheekbone fractured to pieces, left jaw and lower front teeth loose
should see e pic before the stitch with blood and skin loose all over my face
went for plastic and reconstruction of the face surgery
now 'metal plate' in me?

after weeks of needing pain killer and sleepless night still
now slowly the scars fading thanks to the fine stitches and silicone gel for scar reduction
when there's an itch on my face, no use scratching it
i won't feel anything but numb
'll go for my dental in a few days time even on fasting month
swell gradually subsiding but the pulsation's still kinda irritating

1 month break. now after my hair cut like adi bob, i'm able to put on e helmet and travel to my destination. a men can't b sitting at home doing nothing.

listening: money - suede
mood: despair waiting at every moment

MODULE CODE MODULE
MA0525 SHIP OPERATIONS
MA0542 PRACTICAL NAVIGATION
MA0544 GENERAL SHIP KNOWLEDGE
MA0543 COASTAL NAVIGATION
MS7452 APPLIED SCIENCE

where is my last two paper; meteorology and MAth2 !!!???

if only there's no accident and i went through the whole exam.. i would have just go for my COC or been preparing myself for NS now!!! KAO!!! so unfair! :(

ever since the day after the accident till now, have this self thoughts and questions keep running (some jogging while some sprinting)around in my head.

not to mention the funny scary dreams and aftermath. the follow up appointment with the hospital, the repair to the damages, mentally but not too much physical curing to myself. my teeth still need a fix quick or i'll loose my appetite to good food, the scar which i dun mind much is slowly healing and the swelling which take toooooo long to subside! what the hell right.

i still can't figure out how to accept this so called fate and the outcome i have to make do things back to normal.. just can't wait cos it take too much time and i have to wait long for everything to be as per normal.

the thing is.. i'm bored and i just can't stand of doing nothing like this!!!

on the other heand, "Allah tidak akan memberikan cobaan lebih daripada kemampuan manusia." hmmm... whatever had happened, theres happiness and victory awaiting.. Just a matter of time.

ok well happy berpose! bye!

listening: #1 crush - garbage
mood: i just dun like the way i'm feeling rite now..

honestly George, i dun like the way i'm feeling right now. ain't happy,ain't sad.. just dunno wat's the feeling inside me right now.. outcome of the 1o depressing days in hospital, thin macam tengkorak and face so tembam.. and so they start feeing me with anyhow-anywat nutrient and supplement and god knows wat protein..
yes exam finish.. but guess wat! i missed the last 2 paper.. which i think only god knows wat's gonna happen next..
why missed it.. wat happen!? i dunno wat to say , how to say it.. only god knows what telah happen.
thank you - i'm still am fine and alive and gotta just go ahead and continue wat i've been doing. thanks to all my relatives and friends and whoever for the moral support and the visits and gifts... may god bless us all and a well lesson learnt.. and BUT still can't help but think the whole thing that had happen was just all wrong ..mayb.. why me at that time.. well~
no pictures from me.. but i guess some ppl have it with them which i refuses to have a look myself. and it's just nice and good to smile when u r happy, but it hurts!