listening:Manics - Forever Delayed
mood: 9 hours to take off

flying off from ChangiAirport to Narita,Tokyo
Narita, Tokyo to O'Hare Intl, Chicago
O'Hare Intl, Chicago to L Armstrong Intl, NewOrleans.
Next stop.. Ikan Selangat
















Forever is such empty word
A void measurement of time
We never know when forever is
Forever leaves no sign
Forever Delayed? Forever leaves no pain
Forever Delayed? Forever leaves no sign
Forever Delayed? Forever is a lie
Forever Delayed? Forever in my mind
Forever is a lie
Forever is an empty lie
Forever is void of concept
Forever is just a worthless lie
Can Forever be delayed

listening:blondie - maria
mood: u gotta save me!

in a few days time then come to hour and minute later.
time for another 7 month of shit as wat i always refer it too.
i dun give a single fuck.har!cos...
i know i can have a good night sleep and be in a good mood.
wake up the next day and in a few hours at work i'll b moody.
this is the time i wanted time to go fast again.
I'm sitting here alone at night
My sleepless eyes are open wide
What do you want me to say
What i had has gone away

Bastard!

listening: darth vader breathing
mood: pissed off V



picture: my wife is a gangster - movie







I didn't mean to hurt you.and i didn't even hurt you.
you were all fine and i'm pleased to have you
now u left me lost and confused, twisted and used up.
the good beings i spent with and the pleasant time i had,
all vapourised. i was pissed off because of you!
can't turn back time cos i had only 1 chance.its like i have waste my time
and everythings going to be the same old shit because of you!
surprisingly we say it when we're sober.say it to me this time and not reading in words.

argh! you have waste my fucking time!

fuck it! what's done is done.
live in reality and quit the fantasy!

listening: primal scream- rocks
mood: paranoid + heartache



picture - maizuru, japan. 3-4 months ago






Already feel the loss.missing,something missing
She grow weary,bored or i'm just impatient.
Pls stay the same.i dun mind a few lost.cos most of the memory is in you.
End up sending her to the hospital,but asking for an early discharge.
Notified this week but due mid next week.
Good or bad news?the good is bad,the bad is good

listening: radja - takkan melupakanmu
mood: half hearted





picture : hospital at ismailia, suez canal






well my life have been a rollercoaster anyway till i known you.
i would like to throw the old days and sins for they do nothing but feed my memory.
you should know me better for i am trying to change the black and white and sepia to colour.
i have leave behind the things that i cling to for i have found a better one.
i am more happy and satisfied and i am learning at last.
well i just hope that you really dun mind.

life is like riding.to keep ur balance, u have to keep on moving.but not on i gallop.

listening:johnny hates jazz - shattered dreams
mood: nearly wet, well yesterday..

















i'm not like the others. i won't share it to the others.
if i ever break ur heart, i'll promise to give u mine.
always wanting to go out to waste the precious time.
take me away and drown me again, one more time...

the 7 month of boredness is reaching. a week will pass like days sometimes minutes.
take me out tonight.take me anywhere i dun care anywhere dun know dun care!

listening: dragostea din tei - o zone
mood: not yet sleepy

ring ring! nada handphone berdering.. ring ring!

aku: eh hello! ko kat mane!?
engkau: aku ngah jalan ar.jap lagi sampai.da order?
aku: blom lagi ngah tunggu ko. mane ko!?
engkau: order kan aku dulu je.. sembarang.
aku: sembarang takde. ko kat mane!?
engkau:ko makan ape?ok amek kan aku baksoh ngan bandung.
aku: mee vietnam ala sri lanka. eh ko kat mane!?
engkau:ar ok bye!
aku: eh bodoh! ko kat mane!!??

listening: the kkk took my baby away - ramones
mood: i wanna be alone suddenly












i'm nervous cos i'm the left arm u're the right.
you represent what's true.
you've still got the most beautiful face.
it just make me sad most of the time.
i drain the colour from the sky and turn blue without you.

gangs! the room is big but still u guys selet at one corner. love u guys ar! to all those that came!

Thank u very nice!